Originally posted on April 3, 2020 @ 1:47 am
I was already at a crossroads: Baby Boomer, love my work but tired, ready to back away slowly into something retirement-like because I’ll never actually retire. How to do that? When to do that?
Then this. All of … this.
Now, forced out of work but faced with choices:
– Walk away now without actually “finishing” or planning?
– Step up and expand to the online/remote iteration of my work; in essence, branch off into a NEW career path?
But I’m tired.
– Find a simple job, something entirely new, be an employee after almost two decades of self-employment
– Step away and become a woman of leisure supported by her husband, experimenting with classes and volunteering and pet projects – and get another dog.
My problem is YES. I am a YES person to ideas and opportunities and projects … in my mind. In my mind, I am open to all things, starving for all things. It’s how I’ve always been.
In reality, I’m tired. I’ve earned my tired. I’ve worked diligently and have given myself to my work – as a self-employed person I’ve been the entertainer-performer/administrator/accountant/ad agency/sales department/consultant/tech department/research and development/and Human Resources.
Open to being still and quiet and solitary now.
Then again …?